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2003-05-12 - 10:41 p.m.

My brain is ridiculously full today. I have lots I want to write about, but don't know if I have the willpower to do it.

First, I wonder if the Atkins diet will work for me? It probably would, but could I give up crackers and rolls? I doubt it.

Second, the X-Men 2 movie was good, but it could have been better in 2 easy ways, really. All you need is a few nods to X-canon. This could have been accomplished by a) having the child Piotr (Colossus) carries in his arms be Kitty. b) having someone, anyone!, comment on how similar in skin tone Mystique and Nightcrawler are..."Hey, you guys are the same color blue!"

Third, how on earth did I come to be the world's worst correspondent? I love my friends, but suddenly I can barely make myself write an email. I've become lazy, and its awful.

Fourth, a friend moving away feels like breaking up.

Fifth, my weekend wasn't that bad, considering that I spent it all w/ Matt's family. Some funny things were discussed with Matt's mom, including that she thinks I let him get away with too much. An important thought came from that - Matt's sarcasm is like a game. With him and his friends (one in particular), being sarcastic is the same as being clever. And being clever is the same as being smart. And in their worlds, the smartest one wins. And if your feelings get hurt, then it's your fault for not understanding the humor, not their fault for being mean. Because if you can't understand the difference between being clever and being mean, then you are obviously not smart enough. That sword cuts both ways, boys.

I can't make myself write these emails or make these phone calls. I don't know why. Its not like I want people to be mad at me, or hurt. I just don't have the words. I'm off to try, though. I don't want to hurt people just because I'm ashamed of my mundane-ness.

 

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