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2003-09-11 - 4:35 p.m.

This is going to be melodramatic. Sorry, I can't help it right now.

Phew. Well, work is going okay. I have a co-worker who is incredibly offensive, annoying, and ignorant, but I'm learning to live with it. Plus, more and more members of the team are getting pissed off at him, so he does it a whole lot less, and I look reasonable by comparison.

Right now the whole database thingies are down, and for the last 3 days I've been gorging on Sam/Jack fanfic. Which is good, but has me miserably longing for the days of new love. As much as I adore living with Matt, I'm remembering all the excitement of the will-he-won't-he-oh-god-what-if-he-doesn't-what-if-he-does phase of an early, illicit relationship. Oh man, oh man. I can't even remember the last time I gave/got a hickey. Actually, I'm pretty sure it's in here, but I'm too depressed to go look for it. Earlier this year, perhaps? He's just so businesslike, so very grown up. I feel foolish, young, silly for wanting to be passoinate.

Sigh.

That's it for now. Lost my inspiration. Sucked into more fanfic.

 

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